As Is

"When I look around
I think this, this is good enough
and I try to laugh
at whatever life brings
When I look down
I just miss all the good stuff
and when I look up
I just trip over things"

Thanks for the reminder, Ani.

Secret - OUT!

Well, it's done. The people at work know that I'm expecting another baby. This will be the third maternity leave with the same employer and naturally, I was a bit skitish about telling them. Not that they have a rule about how many maternity leaves you're allowed to take, but it makes me feel like such a breeder. Seriously, the people I work for and with are mostly child-free. And of those that do have children, they only have one each. Here I come, the low woman on the pay scale - knocked up again. I imagine they all think I'm crazy and to tell you the truth, I guess I kinda am! College educations will get paid for, somehow, if that's what they all choose to do. Can't worry about that now.

Anyway, the way my well kept secret was exposed is quite something. Most of the people on my floor stream into work at about 11:30 a.m., noonish. I'm the first thing they see when they open the door to the Executive Office Suite. Around noon, this awesome woman that I work with opens the door, looks at me, stops and just says "I see you pregnant". Do-do-do-do.

At this point I shake the goosebumps and know that I've gotta go with it - can't deny. I was kinda speechless and by not vehemently denying it, she knew she was right. I took this as the universe's big, obvious way of telling me that this was the day to spill my secret. And at least when I got around to telling my boss the news later that same day, I had the cool story to go with it. Kinda made it easier to approach the subject. I told her and we laughed and she put my mind at ease by telling me that she didn't want to see me go and that she'd work with me to make my schedule a little bit more flexible when I came back from maternity leave. Whew. I also reassured her that with two car payments, a mortgage, etc. that I needed to keep working. It will be a logistical nightmare come January but so many more women out there have it worse than me. At least we have the cars and the house. And we're happy in them.

Weekend in review

On Friday, as the work week came to an end, I jotted down a little "Weekend to do list". Here are some of the items that were on it:

1) Transfer funds from Credit Union account to bank savings account
2) Take Al to see "Duma"
3) Hop online and pay bills

Didn't do a damn one of 'em. I do regret not taking Al to see "Duma" cause it was only here for the weekend and sure, I'll be stressed out this week now, trying to find the time to do the banking and pay the bills online but you know what? Roasting marshmallows in the backyard with Al was alot more fun. Hubby did all the errand running - changed the oil, went to Costco and grocery store, etc. and for the most part, I didn't do much.

No excuses

I really can't believe that my last post was almost one month ago. Gee, didn't take me long to start and then abruptly QUIT blogging did it? And you know what? I have no idea WHY either. I think I'll blame the February "blahs" and just a general lack of entheusiam to do ANYTHING, including blogging. Winter here is just so long and drawn out it kind of zaps your spirit. Take today for example. The house is SCREAMING for a good cleaning and I just don't have the energy to do it. One thing on the to do list will get some attention today though - move that fridge and find out just what in the hell rolled underneath it and DIED. My suspicion is that Lu has crammed some sort of food stuff under there and it is creating on of those "what is that smell and where is it coming from" deals. Think I'll wait until hubby comes home to accomplish this one.

Another thing I can blame the lack of blog activity on is the fact that we returned the new Casio digital camera we had just purchased and got yet another new one - this time an 8 mega pixel Olympus. I didn't think hubby was going to be able to actually return the Casio but the store took it back, no questions. The fact that I have to learn the ins and outs of yet another camera makes me tired, too. Haven't downloaded a shot from it yet but I'm going to have to cause I owe lots of people lots of shots I've taken for them. There goes my evening.

Work is still work and the family is still busy and the pregnancy is moving right along. Haven't told anyone at work yet and I know I'm going to have to spill my secret soon. Damn clothes are already starting to fit tight around my mid-section.

Baby's up from his nap. Post - done.