Oh. My. God.

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I can't believe that I'm telling the internet the news before anyone else (well, anyone beside my husband and kids). You definately heard it here first. It's kind of like putting my secret out there without really telling anyone. I took a home pregnancy test yesterday and what do you know. Positive. Now what.

The thing is that I liked being a mom with two boys. I liked that the kids didn't outnumber the parents. I can manage two. Two still left time for me to do other things. Lu is 18 months old now - walking, talking, sleeps great, naps nicely, good disposition and so cute and smart. Potty training wasn't so far off. Now you're telling me I have to start over! Bassinets, sleepless nights, breast pumps, wobbly necks and waiting for dried up belly buttons to fall off? Not to mention maternity clothes, swollen feet, doctor appointments, ultrasounds...UGH! I didn't WANT to start over. I'm happy with the way things are. My boys are awesome! Al loves the White Stripes. I've done a good job!

A third means I have to start that "newborn worrying" all over again. SIDS, autism, getting enough breastmilk, pooping enough, vaccinations, germs. And what if it's a girl? That means a whole new set of clothes, toys, room decor and girly DVDs. I don't want to do Disney Princess ANYTHING. Lord help me.

The good news is that I'm barely pregnant and I have lots of time to adjust mentally. I didn't find out the sex of the baby with my first two pregnancies but I will have as many ultrasounds as it takes to find out with this one. I wasn't prepared for it's conception but I will be prepared for it's birth. It's one determined little fetus. I was only off of the pill for one flippin' month! You see, I went to fill my birth control prescription in December and the pharmacy told me that my doctor needed to renew my prescription - no more refills. Thing is, my doctor wouldn't renew until I came in for my annual Gyno exam. He held my pills hostage! I went in for the exam, got my prescription refilled and I actually have the new pill pack here at the house. I was waiting until I started my period to start taking them. But the period didn't come. No fair! I have the pills! They are right here! We're ready to go! I swear!

But alas, there is no rewind button in life and here I am, pregnant with my third child. Oh the things I would do differently if I could. For now, I need to sit back and relax and enjoy life as I know it now and let this new fact of life sink in. We'll be okay and we will deal with things as they happen.

It certainly leaves me lots of stuff to blog about. And kwilliams1, if you happen to be reading, PLEASE, please, please help me keep this a secret for awhile. The fact that I have to tell everyone at work that I need to take a THIRD maternity leave is a whole other headache. I'm actually embarrased. UGH!